The desire to create lives deep inside of you.
It’s the first real indication that there is something bigger than each of us in this world. There has to be. Otherwise what is that force you feel pulling at you from within?
Just as you feel the sun when you step outside each day, the desire to create constantly tugs at your mind. As if it were the gravity of your soul pulling you towards your destiny.
It’s a simple thought. One that leads you to a state of mind, and then towards action. Slowly pushing you towards the answers you have searched for your entire life.
Sometimes it seems so clear that you can even see it when you close your eyes. But no matter how hard you try to hold the thought, it disappears when you open them. You close your eyes again and the scene has changed, and every time you you blink, it’s gone again.
You grasp at it but miss. You scream for it, but there is no one to hear you in the vacuum of your own thoughts. In a world that no one else can see, but to you is so close to reality. A world which does not exist until you decide to make it so.
Until you decide to pick up a brush and paint, even if aimlessly at times. Looking for the right lines. Longing for a path to follow blindly.Searching for your art.
As your art evolves the line you are looking for will reveal itself to you. Your path will appear and your fate will become clear. When that happens, let it all go and give everything to that line.
Allow yourself to follow that line blindly. Give yourself the energy to chase that dream. Find ways to bend with it, twist with it, love, fall, and hate with it. Spin and dance with that line because that line is becoming you. That line is becoming the world you feared might actually be possible.
If you don’t like something about that line, erase it. If you can’t erase it, draw over it. And if you can’t draw over it, then find a way to paint it into something new.
This is the line of life and these are the answers you seek.
Hold on to that line for dear life for it is being drawn by the pen of a destiny you can create. A pen we can all manipulate. A pen you will inevitably need at the exact moment it runs out of ink. A moment when you will look back and finally be able to see the extent of what you have been creating all along.
It is in that moment when you will be judged. But not by the god of the Bible. Instead, you will be judged by a collective of consciousness. By the collective thoughts of those that will live around our work long after we are gone. In the minds and lives of people you’ve never even met.
That is the real heaven. Dying, knowing that your line drew something beautiful. Knowing that you can rest in peace. That you have given a gift to the world that no one else could have given it. Something that will carry on inside of the lives of others, long after you have left.
But that means inaction must become hell. Not one with fire and brimstone, but one where your line is the only thing left to look at. A place where you are forced to stare at your past, even if you hate everything you see.
That was your journey and this is your fate. This is the world in which you must create. But not for others, and not just for yourself. Quite simply, because you must. Because all that is left for you to do, is to become the best possible version of you.
So what will you create? What will be your fate? Will you sleep in peace or suffer in hate? After all, if you are reading these words, it’s not yet too late.
Your insight never fails to inspire. These thoughts especially resonate with me. As a child, my talent to draw gave me the confidence I needed to reach out to others and form friendships. My talent was born from a childhood desire to make friends quickly. This was a necessity when moving from Mom’s to Dad’s and back again every three years. I wanted to impress and dazzle those around me. To quickly move past the awkward “new guy” interactions and on to the more comfortable “guy that can draw” interactions.
I always expected to grow up and become an artist, but life got in the way. Or so I thought. I assumed I would need an art degree and would need to work for commissions if I wanted to be considered an artist. But over the years, as I’ve used my undeveloped drawing talent to visually articulate complex ideas for audiences, I’ve come to realize that (as you more eloquently stated above) we are all artists in ways we don’t even realize. That it is merely the medium in which we create that differs.
Thank you for encouraging us all to embrace our creativity, Raymmar. I aspire to be the artist that you clearly are.
Mike, you flatter me with your words. I can empathize with much of what you say about learning how to make quick friends. And I am just now starting to reconnect with my inner artist after years of being lost in the corporate sales world. I am finally letting the sales guy meet the artist and that has been an empowering reunion.
We are all capable of creating and so many people express their art in different ways that it is difficult to compare one to another. That being said, I encourage everyone to find whatever medium they love and find a way to express themselves within it.
Thank you for reading my words and and sharing your thoughts.
Are you on FB or Twitter? I would love to connect with you on Social media. @RayTirado is my twitter handle and Just search FB for Raymmar and you will find me.
Definitely! My Twitter handle is @Mike_Pierce_OKC. Facebook is https://www.facebook.com/codegrad.
Read it again today! And it probably won’t be my last time. My favorite part is your description of “the real heaven.” You hit that right on the mark for me!!
I have read this one over and over myself. There are some religions undertones hidden in the text that I did not really push very hard but this is a lot deeper read than most people will realize the first time they read it. Like I do with a lot of my work, there is more than one message in the writing and it is up to the reader to see what they need out of the piece.
Thanks again for sharing your thoughts.
This is good stuff man!! I sometimes find it hard for myself to get motivated to paint, draw, invent, CREATE! Whatever your creative outlet, this could get you going. It did for me. Thank you
More than happy to share my thoughts in an attempt to inspire those around me. I am just coming out of a creative slump myself so I understand the lack of inspiration at times. What better way than words and art to set yourself free. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with me! Create on!